Welcome 2010

New computer

I bought a new computer. 20" of pure beauty.

19 years to live...

...is not a very long time.

One of my son's best friends died yesterday. He was only 19. In the local newspaper he is described as a "man" but to this mother - to his mother - and to anyone else who knows him he is still a child.

A child who was just starting his life. A child who went to work not knowing he'd never be home again. A child of a family who never thought they'd have to live out the rest of their days without him. A child friend who leaves behind other children who are too young to understand how this could happen, how this buddy will never be there again. A childhood gone.

I'm sure he thought of himself as a "man", what man doesn't. What boy doesn't wait impatiently for the day that he would be grown up enough to be considered a "man". But he will never grow to be the man his parents born him to be. He will never grow into the man he dreamt he would become.

19 years to live is not long enough!

R.I.P Shawn, we will miss you.

No longer standing alone...

...tonight, along with 6 beautiful ladies that I couldn't do this without, I am no longer alone in my struggle to lose weight and get healthy. We have formed our own support group that will meet once a week to discuss, support and workout. None of us have been truly successful in doing this alone. Together, over the past few years, we have accomplished many things and together we can accomplish this too.

Nothing to say...

It was noted to me recently that it's been a very long time since I last blogged. Well, indeed it has been. I've been busy and I haven't had much to say and it gets worse at this time of year...I get the winter blues.
I am one of those who NEEDS sunshine. I NEED warmth. Winter comes and I just want to keep myself covered and cozied in an attempt to stay warm and forget time until spring comes calling again.
My fingers freeze up in November and thaw out sometime mid April, the same with my toes. Brrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I NEED to be living beside the seashore with the warm wind caressing my skin. I NEED to be WARM.
As I drove home from work yesterday I noticed it was still daylight. A month ago, at the same time of day, I drove home in the dark. That could only mean one thing...spring is on it's way. NO, don't tell me it's still 8 weeks away, let me live in my own dreamworld where I can feel the sun getting hotter, the days getting longer and visualize the grass turning green and pushing it's way through the snow. I want to believe every day is one day closer to fresh buds on the trees and fragrant blooms in the garden...snnnnnnnnnnnn, do you smell the lilacs? I do...and that will help get me through my winter blahs and I'll come out of my cocoon happily blinded by the sunshine and ready for a new season, a fresh start to a warmer, brighter day.
Well, maybe I did have something to say...

Happy 11th. Little Girl

It would seem that 11 years would feel like a long time but not when it's the amount of years your "baby girl" has been alive...it's gone by too fast.
One day you were a tiny little baby,needing constant care and supervision and today you are so independent it sometimes scares me.
You were born during 'the ice storm' of '98 and in this, your 11th year, we are in a deep freeze with temperatures of -36C...no wonder you're so strong willed. You have a definite mind of your own. Someday that will serve you well.

"Happy Birthday!"